Fifteen years ago tomorrow, I became a mother for the first
time when my beautiful baby girl came into the world, informing it of her
arrival with lungs that Shirley Bassey would have been proud of. She turned my
life as I knew it, on its head and if I’m honest, in the weeks that followed, made
me wonder what on earth I’d done. In
spite of the shock to the system that was first time motherhood, I fell
completely and utterly head over heels in love with this gorgeous bundle of
pink and my parenting journey began. Twelve years later to the day, my sixth
child, her little brother and Godson was born.
At the time, his arrival made my daughter seem very grown up by
comparison, as she approached the end of her primary school time. He seemed so
dependent in every regard while she was about to start an exciting new chapter
in her education, one she couldn’t wait for. She strived for independence and
he couldn’t live without me. The different needs were stark and challenging
The first child gets to be the guinea pig in so many
regards. I was she myself, so I can appreciate the frustrations but now I’m
viewing it from a different perspective. This week as my daughter takes on her
Junior Cert I’m like most mums I imagine, and I worry that she’ll get enough
rest, not stress too much and hope the paper goes well. I’m trying in the
little ways that I can, to make home life a little bit easier for her so she
can do what she needs to do. What I really want to do however, is actually go
in and take the exams for her.
As I type, my nine month old son is bouncing to the tune of
“In the Night Garden” and my “one day away from 15” year old daughter is taking
Irish Paper 2. How she gets on will be totally down to her. I can’t influence
or affect the outcome of the exams, save maybe for helping her to be in the
best frame of mind possible and discouraging the pointless post mortems after
each paper. In contrast, I can pick up my bouncing nine month old and feed,
change and do everything he needs done for him.
As I walked back from the school today many parents stopped
to admire my littlest dude. They said they couldn’t believe how he big he is
now and everyone agreed time goes so fast. It certainly does. As if birthdays
aren’t enough of a reminder, state exams certainly hammer that home!
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